clueless future

in between loving myself and hating myself,

I choose to hate myself more often;

because how are there kids out there 

so perfect, so obidient, so smart in choosing their path;

here I am the complete opposite of what you call a perfect daughter,

a flawed, coward girl approaching adulthood;

wondering if i would have a future. 

Maddy Perez (Alexa Demie), Euphoria (2019)